Monday, April 30, 2007

back to the lesson at hand

yet another addendum to perfect garden:

Love-apples (isn't that the best?)

mystic blue salvia

Faun's hair (another fav.)

Everything is Illuminated is one of the best movies I've seen in years. IT didn't get any theater play around here, which isn't really a big surprise, but kindof. Very fulfilling story and funny. That and I love all things old world Russian Jew.

Also watch The X Files movie just for old times sake. It was on. I hadn't seen it in 10 years or so. But yea, fairly terrible.

I hope everyone had a good weekend. Mine was full of tales.

Friday, April 27, 2007

Texas, a quitter

So I wrote it. And I'm proud. Suck it!

The bill collector, they ring my phone, and scare my wife when I'm not home, even though I cancled that account months ago and don't actually owe anything and it's not my fault their stupid accounts receivable can't take me off the list quit calling my phone!! We were closed during your billing cycle arseholes!!!

And anyway. Lots to do. Bad hair day. Ready for red bull and dancing. Ready for more movies than we can watch. Lately:

-Shopgirl --Sucked it. So totally freaking boring, melodramatic, crap and I hate Claire Danes anyway.

-Memoirs of A Geisha-- sucked it too. They couldn't even come close to the lovely, if not Oprahy descriptions in the book. "In placing the fabric here, along the nape of the neck, we will show them a cleft of a peach, to remind them of the cleft they will not see."

-The Lakehouse--I couldn't help it but still sucking. I really like both Keanu and Sandra but a magical, mystical mailbox, come on.

If you can't tell, I haven't been feeling very well lately (down in my back from digging in the garden), so I've been tackling the really difficult stuff to make my brain work overtime.

We got infranetter at the house! So many plans to hatch...

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

sunday sunday sunday

I like my job most of the time.

Like they're previewing the new Tori album on her myspace page and we're all doing office work of sorts and I was playing it and when You can Bring Your Dog came on all the women her started "Oooh oohh oooh oooh oooh-ing" with me. It was fun. So I got that and the new Bjork preordered. Looking forward to trying to catch them both on tour this summer although we all know Tori's a lot more likely to see. And I've seen Bjork before (from waaay afar) when Anne and I went to Europe at some festival I've forgotten the name of with a bunch of rowdy drunk Germans (imagine),

Listening to a bunch of mix cds and I'll just say it, I like some songs (handful for each band) but I just can't like Pavement and Guided by Voices and as lame as that makes me or whateverthefuck, I'm tired of trying and ready to move on with my life.

Clambake Shrimpboil a la Mohoganus Saturday and Girls Club Friday!! I can hardly wait!

Tuesday, April 24, 2007


My clothes

It's pouring and I love it. Tip of the hat to you God, thanks for saving me no less than 20 trips to the faucet and back (although I do love what lugging buckets and watering cans of water is doing to my shoulders and back). I kinda needed a break from that anyway.

No body knows me

Being super duper busy at work is making me super duper busy writing alot. I already have a v. fun, v. silly 2nd piece in the works. It's rough though, so I'll spare you. I'm flexing my rhyme bone though and it makes me laugh.

Like my clothes

And my dahlias are growing!

Ready for some R&R. Mexico, we are heading your way sooner than you think. But first I have to get thee to the bakery and order 6 turtle shaped cupcakes for my boss' birthday (we're doing the HOTS program and she's a turtle, I'm an owl. Hoot Hoot!), get thee to the jewelry store and find out the cost of dipping my rings in platinum since I've developed a metal allergy, get home and feed the hungry donkey bear farm, and then a movie, sweet time, snoring.

All building up to Friday night dancing girls club!! I love my life right now.

Monday, April 23, 2007

screeching weasel

Fact about me: I know just about all of Offspring's song lyrics whether I like it or not.

Adjust to previous dream-garden listing: add Potato Vine, Texas Blue Bonnet, Hawaiian Peacock Jasmine, Delphineum, and Catnip.

Things may have changed, but how they've changed for the better.

Aqua Teen movie was just a big ball of fun crap. And how for the opening sequence. Wow. We should have been trippin' balls!

Love Ur Panub. I sure do.

Friday, April 20, 2007

Diana's plans for me

St. Joseph's Coat, Red Cross Vine, Sweet Alyssum, Confederate Jasmine, Spirea, Gerbera Daisy, Hosta, St. John's Hosta, Clematis, Candy Dahlia, Rosemary, Spanish Lavender, Sweet Basil, Garlic, Big Boy Tomato, Queen Anne's Lace, Cilantro, Italian Parsley, California Orange Poppy, Jonquil, Tulips, Lantana, Flowering Tobacco, Tiger Tomato, Cherry Tomato, Cucumber, Orange Bell Pepper, Creeping Phlox, Tiger Lily, Impatient, Black Fern, Snow Queen Hibiscus, Mexican Thyme, Russian Sunflower, Gladiolas, Lilac Bush, Butterfly Bush, Bee Balm, and Snow Ball. Sweet Pea, Strawberry, Hollyhock and Ivy-- you're next.

It's easy to commit to flowers. It's easy to plan a life with these. It's easy to be loved in nitrogen, carbon, compost, and canes. Frailty is normal in flowers.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007


So I come across the most random of ideas at work. While processing data on Catholic schools around the US, I came across these and I like them very much:

-Most Holy Trinity

-Queen of Peace

and finally, my favorite:

Our Lady, Star of the Sea

One thing the Catholics surely have going for them aside from most saints being fairly cool all outstanding, is the assonance and alliteration found all throughout the language. I know it's from the Latin. And I know it's very difficult to make ole clunky Protestant German sound pretty. But there's something more to it than that. Like magic.

Wonderful words to describe all sorts of lifely situations I would never have known in my life were it not for needing to replace a few door frames:

-plumb (the verb)

-jamb (the noun)

-shim (both verb and noun).

There is light to be found everywhere. Even inside of me. I feel it happening and I can't wait. Supernovaontheinside.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

let me plague myself like the west in his head

Sorry Virginia Tech. I guess they'll finally stop showing that Final Four Coke commercial now. How scary. I guess it did kinda happen here too huh?

I hate the data entry part of my job but it does let me daydream.

I dreamt last night that my boss's kid had been kidnapped and it was up to me to find her. And then I woke up and it was freezing in my house.

Jamaica Inn.

Monday, April 16, 2007

it's like this, that and this and uh

"Hey guys, I've got no class!"

psst: Sept 1

Thursday, April 12, 2007

doodie shoots

hahaha. Today my job title has changed to add "Mass Merchandise Liquidator." It makes me feel kinda dirty, but in a good way.

NAMA tonight. Off tomorrow for various sundry things like "Talking to my Retirement Investor," and "Tooth Plaque Scraping 101." And then Grindhouse. And then MFA show. And then rest rest recoup.

I am so excited to see the looks on some of the winner's faces tonight. I know they won't be expecting it at all.

I keep having action movie dreams in a hovercraft. I wish Chris would end the Bond film festival in our living room already.

We saw 300 last night. Very good despite droning narration. And wow. I'm not normally like this but it made me very, um, respectful of the human form. Yeah. Wow.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

everytime i think i know where i stand

Garagh. I have a really big secret and a really little secret and I can't wait until this weekend when I can finally tell everyone. And no, thank God, I'm not preggers but thanks for playing.

I have to say it was incredibly strange at Birthday Beltaine to hear everyone talk about how much they are ready to start on kids and this and that and the other. I want a family but Christ it terrifies me. Kids. yuck. They poop mud. How many times to I have to say that? Why doesn't anyone believe me? It was great to have such long Thin Lizzy discussions.

God I can't wait to go to Ireland. Chris starts his web design schooling in May through the summer and then Ireland in August and then (gasp!).

Also looking forward to Lovell's masters thesis show and BBQ Saturday, also looking forward to NAMAs on Thursday, also looking forward to some down time tonight and dinner with my honey AND looking forward to narrating Shane's animated project. I think it's going to be pretty spiffy.

Everything in this world must have come from somewhere

No not her, she came out of thin air.

Friday, April 6, 2007

Golden Hordes

Birthday Beltaine was supposed to be this weekend, and it still is, but where it was 80 degrees and my plants were blooming when I planned it, it is now 32 degrees and my plants are frozen.

I put alot of work into it, but I also did so knowing that one's not supposed to plant in our zone until after April 17th. I find this gardening, or yardening as I like to call it, fascinating. Digging my hands in the ground, my bare hands, feels good. It feels productive. It lets me think and toughens me up. I've had cyprus splinters 3 inches long jammed under my fingernails, rusty nails piercing my palm (that hurts, it really really hurts, for days), sweat and sweat and sweat and I love it. It lets me think, and it tires me in a way that's so refreshing. I deserve it. I like watching things grow. Even if my cucumbers never fruit or my jasmine never creeps. I'm successful at the living.

On the other hand, I feel a very strong pull, while digging in all this dirt, to get back in my gospels. Chris is worried, and probably rightfully so, that I'll turn into some crystal wearing, druid rite practicing, Rag Time Roast Beefy, Kaballahist, but I probably won't. It's strange. As what I believe, I have no qualms with exploring this side. 75% of energy is dark matter and if we equate that with evil, then 75% of everything is "evil." But it's not. It's just darkness. I'm not afraid of listening to what it's telling me. I'm just not sure that once I let go, anyone but Chris will understand where I've gone. In researching my life line, it's been suggested that I seek to find Ydabaol, origin of all power. For now, it's just good reading. It opens me up. It's let me know I deserve to be loved. But later, when I can't control it.

Screw it, I don't want to control it.