le mot juste

mot, funny typed. funny.

watched another great movie last night since Adult Swim didn't record except Frisky Dingo (God I love those Sea Quest guys)--

The Squid and the Whale.

Okay so it wasn't as dramatic as all that but it was wholly good. Pretentious characters but the writing wasn't. Extremely solid story line. Interesting but normal. Chris and I thoroughly enjoyed it. It was a nice way to start our Halloween scary movie-a-thon. 28 weeks later and Saw 3, here we come!!

In no less than an average miracle, my hair has grown back longer than it was pre-haircut in just 4 weeks. The blonde looks a little washed but more natural even. My brother really liked it which surprised me. Chris really likes it which surprised me. I get it did and a massage in exactly 1 week. For Anne's mom's party and Franke's sister's wedding I am thinking of bunning it up, Art Deco style, and wearing a long gown and very very dangerously high heels.

I wear flats so much at work that I need some danger and we don't really go out anymore except to sit on porches (which I LUV by the way) and so heels don't really go. It's high time I swapped purses too. Something more fall. I'm thinking the cherry Murakami bowling bag. I'm summer'd out. Time to turn in the sandles and jeans for a little bit more glam.

because I had the time

Let me try this again Internet Explorer, damn you!

A Door in the Floor was great. I'm not usually a fan of John Irving books so much as the movies made from them. Cider House Rules was another one I really liked. And how could you not, Michael Caine you ether snorting rascal you.

Jeff Bridges is wonderful as the eccentric artist. And who wouldn't love the line, "The door in the floor, it's a vagina." You have to love such a vagina oriented movie. But to say that's the center would be missing alot.

We got our Vegas Christmas spectaular vacation booked. Staying at the quint. Ceasar's Palace (we just can't really afford the Wynn, Red Rock is too far away, and Hard Rock just sucks), seeing Love (will be my 2nd time, it's sooo good) and Penn and Teller (ahh! my crush comes back alive!), visiting out in the desert some, take a little peyote a la Tony Soprano, who knows what could happen. I have to make a couple of dinner reservations, I think, and then we're just counting down the days. Christmas weekend in Las Vegas with my baby will be the best Christmas/1st year anniversary present ever!! I can't wait to go shopping!

hip displaysia

Mother do you think they'll try and break my balls?

ha that Pink Floyd line is singing through my head over and over and making my giggle. Day has been long. Glad it's almost over. This last 30 minute home stretch is golden. And then get a little jump on with the Hubs and on the road to end finally finally our chapter of Fayetteville. And all is as it should be. Thank you Jebus.

Dinner last night was wonderful. I think my brother and I are truly at that place where we want to really actually be friends. It's such a strange thing to hear of how people relate to their siblings, have relationships. I've never really known how and I don't blame myself one bit for it but it's just strange when people know at any given moment mostly what their brothers and sisters are doing. And to think, for really the first time last night I felt like a sister. For the first time. Stranger in a strange land for sure. It was just so natural last night.

Sometimes I really wonder what my other 2 brothers are doing. Where they are. They didn't mean anything by it, I know. They were too young, too freshly married to take on a almost 6 year old sister as a child. Like a child. But then I look at these big families. All the age gaps and differences and it really hurts, why that couldn't have been us. me.

It terrifies Chris to think on it, but that's why I always have and still want lots of kids. Surround myself in love like a warn blanket of thankfulness.

I forgive my brothers what they couldn't possibly understand but I can never give them the opportunity to know me again. Holding on to that confusion about my place as long as I have makes it what I have left of that part of my family. I could never give that up, or worse, give it back to them. Because then I'd be holding nothing and my life thus far would turn into thin air.

Have a nice day

I'm a blonde now Pt 2. Mostly. Working on becoming blonder. I really love it. It makes me feel good n' pampered.

Bubs paid and downloaded new Radiohead. Working on that.

Dinner with my brother and his fiancee tonight! I am making Pork loin roasted in Herbs de Provence with garlic, carrots, and onions and then my specialty brussel sprouts. Man you never had brussel sprouts so good. Iced tea and croissants and then grilled peaches and vanilla bean ice cream for dessert. I am very excited. I love to cook.

We close on selling our house in Fayetteville FINALLY on Friday. We go up Thursday after work and install a door and then we eat brunch, close, come home, play shuffleboard hopefully!

Then 2nd Saturday sale with Anne and her mom. I can't wait to see if we can get any giant stone Buddhas for our Zen themed garden in the backyard that I'm working on. I have my eye on a few fountains to die for but they really need to go on sale. I'm figuring they will soon with Fall coming and Winter. It's not really the time people install that kind of thing.

And then the Clinton museum and Flying Fish for lunch! I love date days with my Hubs! Then he has to work a booth at the fair Sunday so we're all going to support and ride rides and look at baby animals and eat fair food. I have good friends that they would go with me so I don't have to be alone while Chris slings Farm Bureau info.

First, get over this cough and head cold. I'm ready to get on my bike again without wheezing and coughing up snot. There I said it. Gross.

We’ll roll that black Mariah through the streets of Spanish Harlem

I've been to Spanish Harlem and there's nothing that romantic about it anymore.

Sick: missed Wilco

Sick: missed !!!

Luckily I have seen both enough times that it's ok. It just would've been neat to see them in my home town.

Allergy/virus blast is amazing! I feel like poo then I feel great then I feel dizzy then I break out into a sweat and feel great! Go figure.

Figuring out tailgating is giving me a headache. I think we'll just show up and roll with it.

Tired again. Need more rest and puppy times.

sleazy tuesdays

leaving at 330! leaving at 330!

gumbo: brilliant.

company and scenario: not so brilliant.

searching for long lost high school alum on the internet: brilliant!

feeling like a stalker: not so brilliant.

really enjoying finding out about people: brilliant

actually having to make contact: not so brilliant

feeling like I have no choice!: brilliant!

spelling brilliant: not so brilliant

I still don't know if it's truly appropriate to have a reunion after only 10 years. I mean, personally, the last 10 years have been mostly years I want to forget, not sit around and reminisce about. Only exception to the rule is sitting with folks, who technically should be strangers, I mean we all haven't spoken in 9 years or more, and that makes people strangers again, and finding out that we've all, in ways more or less, wasted our lives in the past and are only, slowly as a whole, coming back and glueing the pieces back together to make ourselves more respectable and real.

Real dumb.

1st of the month

I still have my Bone Thugs in Harmony tape from high school that I stole from David Heister. Boo ya!

1st of the month at work is supposed to be tuff. We'll see.

Wes and Tasha over for homemade roux gumbo tonight. It smelled really good last night! We'll see!

2 hydrangeas, 5 azealeas, 1 Cleopatra camilla, about a million tulip, daffodil, and hyacinth bulbs planted and ranuculous. So done for Fall.